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Pondering whether Persisting > Resisting

You look like a new person- hi there! Thanks for reading. This site is where I vent about having an invisible disability as well as cancer. Please consider sharing this post because it’s really helpful in my shift to a writing career. Welcome back! Please tell share this post or consider buying me a cup of coffee because it will help me continue to pay bills while I shift to a part time writing career.This is one of the places where I always get tangled with things like optimism, positive thinking, law of attraction, visualization etc. Don’t get me wrong – I’ve based much of my life on the concept that being able to separate yourself from your thoughts and emotions can help you thrive in life. I meditate. I visualize. And though I reject the idea that positive thinking is some kind of magic that can bootstrap people in survival mode out of poverty? And other theories that claim that people born into a marginalized group are somehow attracting their oppression to themselves? It has served me well. As I’ve said before, you have to make out of survival or trauma mode before you can even focus your thoughts enough to thrive and prosper. Even if that particular claim of the law of attraction is accurate, I hardly think that blaming people for unwittingly worsening their prospects is an effective method of getting them to change their habits. When you are in turmoil or survival mode, it’s nearly impossible to break

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Cancer & #Chemo Recovery – a peek into the months after

On September 26, I felt odd. All day long like I was forgetting to do something. Or supposed to be somewhere. It wasn’t until I was trying to fall asleep that I remembered. It was Chemo Day. Only it wasn’t, because I’d had my last treatment for CLL at the end of August. I stopped short at knowing it might never be chemo day again, but the idea that The Chemo Era is over at least for now, was and is greatly comforting. Although I have to keep at the back of my mind the thought that I have a chronic cancer. So it’s never really gone, it’s just under control until, best case scenario, it comes back many years later. I tend to be an optimist, so I do hope that given my age and the tales of 20 year remissions that are becoming increasingly common, I may never have to deal with this again. But I’m also a realist. My prognosis is intermediate. They may come up with a Lymphoma cure before my chemo time comes again, or they might not. The kind of cancer I have has an above 80% survival rate for 5 years, but about a third for ten years. Although I don’t go by the odds, knowing what they are gives me the motivation to defy them. How you feel after chemo is not what you might expect If you or a loved one is going through recovery from chemo, the most pertinent advice

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